Autism, shout out and 3 smacks!

Just finished a fight with my 13 y/o autistic brother.

He didn't like a certain tv show and sort of freaked out... resulting to a small scratch on the back of my hand (and not to mention, redness on my arms).

I was so pissed off that I hit him back.

That started it all. But mostly, I'm in the defense while he's on the offense.

*sighs* I know. You cannot for the life of you understand why I (a 17 y/o college girl) hit my younger brother back.

But you can't blame me. When you're being physically abused by an autistic child (e.g. scratches, bites), your initial reaction is to defend yourself.

And that's just what I did. I mean do everyday.

Honestly, I think I'm too smart for this everyday insanity. Two years from now, I'll get my BS in Nursing from MDC. *crosses fingers*

But I guess there are some things they just haven't teach me yet in college. Like how to cope with autism 24/7.

Don't get me wrong though, I love my younger bro. But temper tantrums are just not worth it.

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My blog was nominated Filipino Blog of the Week at The Composed Gentleman.

Since you've read this far, might as well click that link above and vote for me.

That demanding huh! LOL.. At least, please indulge me.

Thanks! ;)

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After eons of waiting, my blog was finally re-reviewed by Charles, the Asian Blog Consultant, at IT2M!

Here's a real blast from the past - an IT2M blog review last December.

And now, the re-review:

Okay, I will be biased on this one. I like this blog so I don't give a shit if someone said that I had a lapsed of judgment.

The template is clean and quite virginal but I have a slight problem with the sibebars. It is too busy for my standards. I kindly suggest that you find ways to clean it to match the template. In addition, the tagboard has to go since you have your comments' section and you really have to utilise it.

I like her entries and she seems to be a really sweet girl with a sweet smile. Okay, enough said.

Charles gave me 3 smacks!

Three smacks, wow!! I could now point a pistol against my temple and be done with this blog! LOL

Anyway, seriously, I highly appreciate the review but the sidebars will remain.. Still, thanks Charles! Big hug for you!

Certain issues

Well, what I'll gonna say is beyond my shallow self.

I don't normally share issues that do not pertain to me (pretty narcissistic for a person who doesn't claim to be one, right?) ...but then i just wanted to say that:

I hate unworthy policemen.

And to think that I don't use the word hate too often. Hate isn't healthy.

But... grrrr... if only a curse could give them a knock on the head, I'd be willing to swear the world out from here to eternity.

I mean, seriously, some of them are just so unfair, unfair, unfair!

Ever heard of their "palit-ulo" principle - "we'll keep the innocent until we get our man"?

That's what the goodhearted son of my family's laundrywoman (of more than 10 years) have experienced.

Rubbish!

Just because they're poor.. it doesn't mean that they should be deprived of certain rights.

I wish them goodluck. And somehow, may they attain justice.

It really breaks my heart to see somebody crying so hard. :-(

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I downloaded the latest version of Yahoo Messenger last Thursday.

Everything seem to be so cool until I saw that one of the categories in my YM list - the Friend's list (those people I know personally) - was near empty.

Stupid YM!



"Friends (0/1)"
Tsk.. tsk... I was really so pissed that time. And when I say pissed, I mean really really pissed. My degree of pissitivity rose to its highest possible level. Honestly.

But awhile ago, I opened my YM again and imagine my happiness when I saw that it's back. My friend's list is back! Woohoooooo!! LOL



"Friends (4/48)"
Just sharin'. ;p

Happy 17th birthday to moi!

Just got home.

After our RLE class, we spent the rest of the afternoon in SM MOA.

Actually, we just ate and then went to Timezone. Haha.. Since I'm the birthday girl, syempre, kailangan manlibre. ;p

I'm short of money today but I still bought Timezone cards for each of us.

Just for celebration's sake. *winks*

Anyway, the highlight of the afternoon was when we did a sing-along in Studio 4 Karaoke chuvaness.

We were rocking side to side and wailing out seriously off-key, foot-stomping version of different songs (e.g. Crazy For You, Chiksilog, Power of Two).

Loved it!

And when I reached home, I was surprised by my mom's hand-clapping version of Stevie Wonder's Happy Birthday To You.

Sweet! Wala lang... ;p

Thanks to all who greeted me nga pala! Hehe... Love ya all! *hugs*

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Last Friday, I attended the 5th Honors Assembly of our school.

And good news! I'm still in the President's List. ;p

Actually, I'm really happy talaga to share that I was able to maintain my grades, despite of the stress my autistic brother is giving me both physically and emotionally these past few months.

So happy..

Have a nice day to all! *hugs*

Do you feel grand?

Well, I don't.

Yesterday had been a pretty messed up day.

I woke up at 5:30am (with my temples throbbing like nobody's business) and quickly (I mean, really really quickly) prepared for school because there's a long test in our first period, Stat.

And whatdyuknow! The class started at 7am and I arrived almost 30 minutes late.

I was really worried because some professors actually lock the door for the love of latecomers. Really worried...

Only to fricking find out that the test was rescheduled (so ok, half of the night spent for studying was useless), and there's only individual recitation. Much to my relief.

After Stat was our Homeroom period.

Since it's no major subject (as if it's a "subject"! duh), we asked permission from our Homeroom adviser if we (me, Cydi and Yda) could skip class so we could go to Metropoint Mall in Pasay Rotonda (second nearest to us since SM MOA is not yet opened that time) and have our English report photocopied to an acetate paper.

Well, since our report was not yet complete, we went to an internet café and surf the net for additional information.

It's already 10am (the start of our English class), and we're still in Metropoint Mall, waiting for Copytrade to open. When the photocopying was finished, we went out of the building (apparently) and saw it was raining heavily.

Gaaah... Since we're already half an hour late (again), we didn't waste any precious minutes waiting for the rain to stop. Instead, we braved the chilly rain and immediately rode a jeepney back to school!

And the best part is... when we reach our classroom, the Prof. said that group reports are rescheduled, just a quiz for that day.

The moment I heard those words, I wanted to drop dead face first on the floor.

I mean, we already got soaked wet and then, she's indirectly telling us that our effort *gasp* was *gasp* useless.

Useless, my foot!

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Seriously, with all the stress and exhaustion I've experienced since Day 1 of August, I am, it seems, officially ill.


The day before yesterday: me feeling ok


Now: me with fever

You see, with a headache like mine, a temperature soaring and a body feeling like it had been through 12 rounds with Muhammad Ali (yeah, dream on!), it's downright hard to get out of bed this morning.

Still can't relate? Think of jack-hammers in your head, I think that will suffice.

Tsk... tsk...

Honestly, I don't know what or who to blame. The rain, the misfortunes of the day or just me being a certified worrywart.

Until now, I don't know if I should laugh, frown, scream, cry, or ask Almighty God where the reset button was so I could do that one over.

Ma...

I can't believe that I'm so effing selfish and insensitive.

Just because of that thingamajig, I said some stupid things which caused you temporary ill-feelings.

Ma, seriously, sorry po.