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A Matter of Choice by Jaime

Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you can never have them...?

When the moment you can not feel them under your fingertips... you miss them?

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. They are the things you get ashamed of because words diminish them, words shrink things that seemed timeless when they were in your head... to no more than living size when they are brought out...

Do not be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart... but if you do not, you might break theirs.

Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides who it likes and who it does not. You can not tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own... when you least suspect it, or even when you do not want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled because we are too afraid to care too much... for fear that the other person does not care as much, or at all.

Have you ever loved someone and they had absolutely no idea whatsoever? Or fell for your best-friend in the entire world, and then sat around and watched her fall for someone else?

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we do not know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But everytime we tell a lie... the thing we fear grows stronger. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Do not be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have, or could have had.

No one waits forever.... it's just a matter of choice.

I was a "somebody" a long time ago...

Names. Many of us have them, yet what do they mean? It may not be a surprise to learn that names are not simply out-of-the-blue decision our parents make. Let me share with you the origin of my name.

Actually, it was my mom who thought of the name Airah. I reckon she used to like the name Maria a lot. She jumbled it, removed the letter M, added the letter H at the end.. and presto, her first child was named Airah.

Janelle was quite a superficial thing. She just liked it. Maybe for her, it gave a Spanish beat. Frankly, I do not even know if it was really Spanish-ish.

*grins*

I surf the net once in a while and found something w/c caught my attention. It was the meaning of my name. I opened the site, and well.. I was quite overwhelmed by the meaning.

Read on:

You are both a visionary and a realist able to bring your dreams into a tangible form. Pioneering and ambitious you accept new challenges and the responsibilities which go with them willingly. Your sound judgment, resourcefulness and positive nature means that your progress in life is assured. Certainly your kindness and generosity to others and your inspirational manner attract success as well as many admirers.

I was so curious to find out more that when I stumbled upon a site which offer the origin of my name, I eagerly opened it. It says:

Airah was originally used penetratingly to refer to a famous sect of surly, pilfering domestic servants, before it escaped to France with the help of sympathisers.

As I was doing my research, I found lots of famous people having the same name.

Airah Happenstance, once saved by Mr Bronson from Grange Hill.
Airah Dindymene, disgusted by the methods of Judge Dredd; ghost-writer of Richard Stilgoe's posturingly lurid autobiography, YES, I THOUGHT I WAS DEAD TOO.
Airah Tube, champion of Explode-O, the wonder bang dismantler. Airah Quoits-S'Ess (The Celebrated Juggler), named in court as holding compromising material concerning the legendary Source of the Thames.
Airah Lilly Li-Millington, BA, reputedly trapped for seven days under a fallen monument to the evaporating duck.
Airah Itching, MA, for a time, in their own mind, romantically linked with a slightly famous TV chef whom they saw looking at cardigans in Woolworth's one time.. etc!

So you see, knowing the meaning behind my name was something. Actually, this is my assignment for our Theology class.

But you know what, I actually don't know what I was thinking posting this kind of crap. I mean, so what if there's something in my name??

It wasn't as if you weren't a "somebody" too a long time ago... Haha.. ;p

A year older

Hellen Keller once said, Never bend your head. Hold it high.. Look the world straight in the eye. I believed that we are all different. We have our own insecurities and mistakes.

With all the peer pressure, it is really tough being a teenager. That is why I am quite lucky because I already figured out who I am and what I really wanted to be. For those people who do not know me personally, I will make a brief description about myself.

Unang-una, friendly na talaga ako ngayon. Kahit hindi ko masyado feel ang isang tao, I still try to be open-minded. Mahirap kasi magkaroon ng enemy, nakaka-affect sa studies. College life taught me that.

Sa totoo lang, I really hate to fall at anything. I may have short tempers pero I have the ability to hide my anger and discontentment. Siguro for me, iyon na yung valuable asset ko.

I think I am now sensible. Once is enough already. I wll never let my heart rule my head again. Ika nga sa isang forwarded SMS:

Nong bata aq, nagma2dali aqng 2manda pra mranasan kng pano mgmhal. Ngaun nranasan q na, don ko naicp na ms mdali plng gamutin ang 2hod na nsugatan kysa ang pusong nsaktan!

I prefer to strengthen my intellect nga pala by reading lots of books and magazines. Sa books, Harry Potter at Sherlock Holmes talaga ako. As in solid! Sa magazine naman, Candy Mag. Two years na akong nagko-collect non.

Ayun.. Just sharing.

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Hehe.. Kami ni Nini yan.. Remember Nini? As in Christie Ann Fabros Perion..? Guys, mga highscool classmates ko jan since elem days? Haha.. Kami friends ngaun.. Ayon.. Wala lng.. Etong girl na toh na may boyfriend na in the person of Charles Bautista. Haha... Grav.. Mgaling toh sa algeb. Pinerfect ba naman quizzes buong midterm??! Haha..


Si Rob, isa sa barkada kong silahis dati.. Certified gay na ngaun.. Luv ko yan. Haha.. Kinikilig yan sa guys na mga astig magdala ng damit at higit sa lahat supah cute ang mga crushes nyan. Ang crush nga nyan ngayon ay si *toooot*... Hehe...

Tas sa tabi ni Rob ay si Angel. Ang classmate kong anak ng politician in Malvar, Batangas. Pero in fairness, nice nman xa and friendly. Astig nga eh.. Seatmate ko siya sa Gen Psych namin. Ayun...

Actually Nikko was my very first newfound guy friend nitong college. Pero mga after 1 week, sa ibang tropa na siya sumasama. Pero ok lng iyon. Nong parang hindi na siya sumasama sa amin ni Nini, dumagdag naman sa barkada namin sina Rob, Jecha, Ross, Es and Thal. Next time share ko sa inyo iyong pics nmin na kompleto kami sa barkada. Haha..

Pero, I will never forget my highschool bestfriends. For me, iba pa rin talaga ang highschool. Pero mas feel ko ang college, kasi sa highschool bihira ako makagala. Actually, I could never think of a moment (in highschool) nakauwi ako after eight o clock without a sermon from my mom or dad. lol..

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Anyways, di ko pa finish si Sherlock Holmes, pero may iba na naman akong binabasa. Ahhh!! Kailan ko kaya matatapos si Sherlock Holmes..? Hehe.,., Kahit fave q un, parang nakakatamad ng tapusin. Dami kasing cases eh. Kaya kay Valerie Wesley muna ako...c:

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Whew! Two days na lang and I am a year older na naman. I am about to enter the world of sweet sixteen-ers!

Advanced happy 16th birthday to me.. ;p